Monday, November 9, 2009
I realised, I haven't posted in quite awhile. Been drawing lately(http://skyblader.deviantart.com/), and of course DotA-ing. Missing somebody. Going online much less. Well, feel like going out, cant. Its been boring these few days, and I hate it. Just gives me some time to go to my room, lie on the bed, stare at the ceiling, and let my soul be lost in thought. Emotions, predictions, grieve and God knows what else. It'll just be a few hours later when I suddenly come back to reality, and find out how much time I've wasted. My next target would be Inuyasha and Kagome together, stay tuned. :)
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
7:55 AM
today.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
today sucked. didnt sleep as usual. 5am went to mac with ant. talked bout prank calls , laughed like nobodys business, stomachache + tears. thn went home, took a nap while he fixed warcraft on the desktop. thn we dota-ed tgt be4 goin to martin's house. went thr slacked/napped/prank called. Had a fun time until it reached klins ha. I hate him :). it keeps coming back aft it goes away. Yea so i napped awhile be4 walkin home. thn dota-ed. make me sibei dulan. why? i at top lane with him, i keep lure the 2 heroes and thn die, thn he get the kills. Yes, my aim, he carry mah. thn he late game call me feeder/spy? ask me switch over? steady loh, i spy. help thm lose loh, deny all switches. He called me nolife kid and noob. yea, i told him spy = no life kid + noob, he oso diam diam. this kind of ppl fight oso get no whr. bless him oso kena, curse him oso kena, help him oso kena, dun help him so kena. so w/e
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
3:47 PM
.a.
Monday, November 2, 2009
ok so on sunday, i slept at 8am. woke up at 10+, got ready waited for sis and reached church at 12+. Slacked till 1+, went to suntec to make specs. Well for dad and sis, while i just gt shades. Shopped arnd while waitin for the specs, felt sick. well, just not enuff rest. Sis hand itchy go touch a button, made a crazily loud sound and she was like "wdf" and zhao. Had fun ytd, chatted bout sch and stuff. Finally went home, thn reached home. took a quick 5min nap and thn off to dinner. Ate the least and thn slacked/phoned. Thn went home, com-ed till 2am. woke up today at 11+, skipped lunch and slept till 2pm? Thn woke up and went to get my first ATM card, YESH. Be4 eating KFC and goin home. thts bout it. I probably dun rmb some important details cuz i was tired, but just rmb i hav crazy family tht jokes alot :)
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
4:41 PM
The 2nd wedding day
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Today was a long day agn.... ok lets c.
woke up at 6+ to 7, saw everyone asleep, dozed off.
Woke up agn at 7.18, 7min to wash up/prepare/walk to sch? no way. Continued to sleep.
9am woke up, bride and groom came my house to dunno do wad, im probably half asleep. well, i slept at 1am ytd =/
thn aft tht, DotA. Mr soh called at bout 10+, gave him the reason i had to attend wedding. no mc at all.
left house at 11.30, for some catholic church at bukit batok. Rehearsal started at 12, actualy stuff ltr. stand/sit for bout 2hrs be4 goin home.(Attending wedding sux. i wished i went to sch.... missed ppl)
Went to sch to giv sci file/body world consent form/money/travel plan form. Took report book, couldnt take my 2 certs cuz mr chong went for lessons. Met kevin, walked home tgt.
DotA-ed till 5+, went to the furama hotel at clarke quay. Took our time, reached at bout 7+. Joked/chatted arnd, cleared the peanuts, destroyed some stuff.. ( nt literally )
Went into the ballroom. Waited thr like for eternity while joking.
Some interesting programmes, amazing dragon dance. Dinner started. Programmes such as the proposal continued. Finally programmes ended, left food. Joked arnd as usual, my family, jokers. Yeah thn MRT-ed home. Time check 12.30 now. so reached home bout 12.
Btw, its drink some tea/ pray some stuff first.
Thn wedding,
thn dinner.
Pics ltr.
Ok here:
Kinda my latest picture aft a long time. Looks betta enlarged.
The vow part..
Some gospel reading.
Still the vow part.
And yeah, still the vow part.
Yeah exchanging rings/vows.
Same.
Same.
Ok this is boring.
Same...
Souvenir.
Taken with flash.
Yeap. The car and some people.
Some pics.
Vow agn.
yesh its still the same...
me my family and relatives? o.o
another view.
its the same thing.
same agn.
Yesh, the wedding car :)
Omg the ring barer is so cute. lawlx.
same agn...
The amazing dragon dance?
Click here if you cant c it properly.
Click here if you cant c it properly.
As you have noticed, No order at all.
I felt different during the wedding, thr was this one part, whr the lights were flashing and changing uncontrollably and the music was lost, making all other noises lost in it. It actually brought me to another world, and thn everything was blue/red/green/black/white/whatsoever with the lights. And yea, it felt amazing. too bad i cant take a vid.
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
12:26 AM
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
nuthin much to blog today anyway. just dota-ed 1 match. i tink someone angry liao, tmrw in sch sure come sch guailan/kp me with other ppl. steady 1. Assisst hero tio ks :) Thn yea u get the point... its ok, everybody has to learn some day, bout tinkin for others and nt just bout themselves. Think of the big picture. Draft/pub still the same. yea so i jsut updated my blog for the sake o it, i dun wan it to die? yea so... yea.
i miss her. -
we were brothers, no longer. -
we are brothers. -
we are great frens. -
I've hurt thm. -
They've hurt me. -
I can rely on them. -
I cant rely on thm. -
They cant be read. -
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
10:02 PM
Monday, October 26, 2009
Got back results, 9As, first in class, 3rd in sch. Agn. Anyway, i pwnt marcus. I was copying everything he said and he wanted to make me say, "im a gay", so he said "im a gay", instead of copying tht i said im nt and took a print screen. :)
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
10:18 PM
I cant say how I feel anymore. Maybe im just too kind. Its bad enough not being able to say it properly, now i cant. Do u knw how hard it is? :)
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
4:05 PM
wad is happening...
Saturday, October 24, 2009
I dun even knw if ur my fren, everytime u do smth, i suspect u. sometimes i see thru ur plans, sometimes i just cant tell. everytime u do smth, i suspect u. i just cant trust u, u make me suspect u, ur actions can be tht fake, and it can be tht real. uve fooled me time and time agn, im scared. not being an ordinary person , made me one of the few tht can look deep inside u, everytime i try to expose u, idk whether im doin the right thing or not, u made it seem so real, yet so fake, i cant tell whether its the truth in ur actions or words. everyone else will see me as the bad guy, only u and i knw. the worse thing is, no one will understand wad im saying. i feel useless... i cant tell whether ur the bad guy or not. maybe its just my level, tht even i suspect myself, or ive reached the level to point out evil. its the human's brain tht can resort to public tht hav no idea wads happening to help u in ur cause, to gain manpower and overpower the other party. ive seen tht alot on tv. watchers can tell, but if theyre in the show. can they? But if im wrong, im making things complicated and hurting u.. i dun even knw if ur acting whn ur hurt. ill be the bad guy... at least thts wad ppl will see me as... i dun get it..
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
4:33 PM
Thursday, October 22, 2009
i havent blogged today, have i? we'll start with... ok forget tht part. How about, during assembly we were scared stiff cuz our hair was long, thn we go back to class, thn blah blah blah. recess blah blah blah, thn blah blah blah. this is one of the most strictest school ever. Exams over = Homework/hairchecks smlj = = As if its the start of the school or nxt week goin to exam = = Yeah, so i was satisfied with Math, although i did a stupid mistake, english 0.1 mark to A2 = = Dnt A1, yea im satisfied. Chinese failed, bout 30+ or 40+, thn art 1 mark to A1, at least for the exam, thn add in our other scores, i tink ill get lower. Damn it sia, i couldve done betta with more time... My drawing was better thn terence, and thn his gt colour mine dun, he gt higher TT_TT haizz. thn science, gt the highest in overall in our class, thn john gt a few more marks thn he higher = = thn ancel oso get more marks. walao i go emo liao. if i read.. i couldve changed question 1 to 5 and gt 3 more marks ... = =thn geog i oso gt A1, satisfied. yea so, thts bout it.at least thrs no school tmrw.
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
8:36 PM
picnic?
Monday, October 19, 2009
today was, boring. unusual but boring. So i was dota-ing and blah blah blah with klins until it finally reached 12.45, took our time to reach thr . was late. Gave a surprised attack on terence and thn wet his phone. haizzz. Played on, and thn was hating someone thru out. Hated tht guy. Shldnt hav saved him, shldnt hav played along with him. Does he even care for others properly, think about others wad the fuck will they feel, and doesnt knw wrongs and how to apologise, and can continue like no fucking shit happened. I was so foolish. Haha, did i fall for his tricks? i guess i did. i was a sucker. but no more, i was such a great friend, i was such a great guy. but u hurt me, leaving one of the deepest scars in history. there were 3? why? becuz u were close. becuz of all the good times we had. becuz of our friendship. But now i realise, i cant be with a gay. Acts like a girl, personality like a girl, wadeva like a girl. just not a girl. I treated u like a brother, but u disappointed me. Until we find our mistakes, i wont even treat u like my imagination. ur nt thr. ur gettin too close, it makes me jealous. if u were to ask me to trust u, i wouldve said yes, but i cant do it. uve helped me alot, but i would appreciate if u kindly gtfo.
So we just played in the water, and thn bathed/changed thn go into the playground and hav some childhood memories be4 goin back. Wad was the best thing i do? or the only thing i did? nothing. How am i gonna get it? i cant. i knw im a failure. even how great i am, ive been nerfed in certain aspects. maybe im doomed all my life to nt being able to make it, ill just go along as life wans me to, nt how i wan to. becuz itll nver work.
Skyblader
Sometimes you just have to smile
pretend everything's okay
hold back the tears
and just walk away.
6:51 PM